Thread:Aeoneonatrix/@comment-189.250.189.203-20130318050745/@comment-189.250.184.247-20130318082151

Yes, perhaps I was too rigid, and I may have sounded aggressive and petulant instead of assertive, which is what I was going for. But I did repeat the same thing about a hundred times, and I defended what I thought worth fighting for. I also made the mistake of not monitoring the whole thing more closely, and factoring in what everyone else thought. But as I've perhaps not said enough, I'm not used to doing that. And I'm not invested enough to check the chatter on the IRC on top of here.

Like I said so many times before, this isn't about the "place of privilege" or whatever of owning a galaxy. There isn't (in my opinion) any privilege in controlling one, it's a freaking imaginary place for god's sake. Nothing to brag about. It's the fact that I've spent hours on images completely based on it being a galaxy, and written a dozen pages using the word galaxy and its derivatives maybe a couple hundred times. That is why I can't go back to change it all, not without real difficulty. I did thank you for your input on possible solutions, as well as anyone else's who tried to help- what I didn't do was even decide if making the fiction collaborative was worth it. I didn't ignore them, I was (and am still) mulling them over. The fact that all this mountain of problems has arisen from just mentioning integration, though, gives me a pretty good idea that it isn't worth it.

As for the ban and the banning, I don't mind. I'm not going to try to and convince anyone of anything, which is a waste of time. I got annoyed by Cyr's little callous show (which he used instead of outright "crossing the line") and denounced it. I never really liked him because I don't think of him as a genuine inventor, even when we got along, so that didn't help. But I do maintain what I said, censored or not, about respect. Admins aren't put there to behave like arses, or to curtail any discussion they just don't feel like listening to (mine, by the way, was on Wormy's private chat box, not on some blog everyone was supposed to chip into. No one invited anyone else, but themselves). If admins want to get personal, they should be able to keep their privileges away from their feelings, not the other way around.

Thank you for volunteering to help, and I mean it, but you shouldn't worry about it. If he wants to ban me, fine. A place where someone can do that if s/he just feels like it, having to constantly watch your back for them and respond to their unpleasantness with smiles, isn't one worth staying in at all. I won't grovel to hang around in purgatory. 'Till then, I'll keep writing in private. And once again, thank you.