Thread:Ecoraptor3339/@comment-5496489-20160524151005/@comment-5496489-20161112005914

@Charles I would also like to explain in greater detail why I decided to replace the DEC with the Affonire, and well its not something that is easy for me to talk about so that's why it never came up before, but you deserve to know so here goes.

I didn't really have a great or healthy childhood. I was a odd kid and perceived as creepy and abnormal by my peers so I got bullied a lot. My difficulties with expressing my emotions and tendency to go into melt down didn't help and just made things worse (I would never act mad just say I'm mad in monotone). I ended up developing depression, let myself be used a few times as I had zero self confidence, and eventually made an attempt on my life.

I'm better now and getting counselling and all that, as well as having develop some actual friends and have developed healthy relationships with others. However this stuff takes time and one of the ways I have helped the process along is by putting aspects of my experience to my fiction usually in a way most don't recognize. It makes it easier to face the experience and work my way through it. Basically the Affonire allow me to do this where as the DEC do not.

I never wanted to screw you over and I am sorry I made you feel that way. I want to make this work in a way that allows me to help my healing along and you to keep your plan on tract, but I need your help if I'm going to avoid screwing you over. Like Eco suggested tell me want you need to happen and I'll figure something out, if what I figure out doesn't work give me a reason why and I'll figure something else out.